I am so sorry to hear this news. Can i just say here, COVID-19 SUCKS THE BIG ONE?!?! Not sure about the wording you're hearing in your province but here "medical treatments" are listed as "essential" and as such I can leave the house for them but DANG, not if the facility isn't open to provide said treatments. Same goes for you but it has to be a thousand times worse because you have to try to deal with watching your child suffer while trying to contain your own frustration, anger and fears. Again, I'm sorry
Yes, exactly. For our situation, the facility is still open, but because they've had to implement much stricter protocols (one example, having to allow time to "air out" and do extra cleaning in the OR before bringing in another case), everything is taking longer, and they are able to process less cases now. I know many places are swamped with cases so that is impacting things. Thankfully that's not happened here,
yet, however what we are running into is that we now have so many of our doctors, nurses and other essential medical workers in isolation due to contracting or being exposed to the virus, that they're canceling tests, non-essential surgeries etc... because they just literally don't have anyone to do them.
Wholeheartedly agree. My kid isn’t doing well emotionally and it’s tearing me apart. Online school is a mess, she never leaves her room.
I think we are in the darkest part of this pandemic right now and we are all hurting. It’s one thirty in the morning here and I’m up because of my racing heart. The anxiety is real. As you say, the whole thing sucks!
@mshanson3121, I’m sorry about the postponed surgery and likely cancelled trip.
Agree. We're now (for all intents and purposes) a year into this thing. Their prediction of "second wave being worse" came true. Winter is normally the hardest time for us all anyways, but couple it with Covid...? The fatigue is real. My one hope is the saying, "The darkest hour comes just before the dawn." May this be our darkest hour, and may dawn be breaking on the horizon soon.
At this point it’s all started to affect everyone in our households mental state. Not the not being able to go to WDW but the not being able to go anywhere in general.
In fact, that’s mostly why I started making plans to get back, to have it to look forward to. Not this year though. Aiming for 2022.
Yes! I think I said this elsewhere a while ago, maybe even on this thread, LOL, but.. one day DH saw me looking at Disney trip stuff and said, "Why torture yourself when it's so far away?" And I told him, because it gives me something to look forward to; it gives me hope.
Nights are both my best and worst times of the day. Best because no one else is around to notice that i'm still awake and that means it's perfectly acceptable to do as little as I want to -- often just sitting on the couch pretending i might eventually fall asleep. Worst because no one else is around to notice that I'm still awake so I'm lonely I don't really want company because it's tiring to "be" Anxiety is my unwelcome companion both day and night, in the house and outside. It was even worse when i was caring for a teenager who was also going thru sleepless nights due to anxiety. Being a parent is really hard at times but when we're not our best person and needing to care for an aching child it's all that much harder.
It is comforting to know that we're not alone, removes that "no one get how hard this is" as well as the shame/blame we might place on ourselves. You're doing your best right now, remember that! It hurts, like physically hurts to watch your child suffer and if you need to reach out to someone who has walked that road (at times barely crawling myself) feel free. -- Notice it's now 2:38 and I'm still up
Wish I could give you a hug. Must have been something in the air last night - I had a hard time sleeping last night, too. For me, it was memories of my father. Sometimes, it's still so hard to fathom that he's gone, how much life has changed in just a year. A year ago we were teasing back and forth because we were going to be facing each other at Super Bowl. He was HEALTHY. Ate right, never smoked a day in his life, was fit... and 3.5 months later after some fluke dizziness we're being told he has stage 4 brain metastases and has months to live. And he didn't even get that. A few weeks later he was gone. It is sometimes so hard to wrap your mind around that. It's funny, we talk about the importance of making memories, how precious they'll be some day, and how much joy they'll bring us - but no one ever talks about how painful they will be, too. I know there will come a day when the memories will no longer hurt, and honestly, I'm starting to get there. There are definitely times now I can remember things, talk about my father, even laugh at certain memories, without the tears. But I'm not fully there yet. It's definitely a process.
I feel like we are all grieving. We may not all be grieving the loss of loved ones, but I think to varying degrees, we're all grieving the loss of our sense of normal, our sense of security, our sense of freedom, perhaps even our sense of faith in people (man has that been sorely tested this year), our sense of direction, our hope, our friendships and relationships, even the little things that might sustain us in hard times, like being able to go to a movie with a friend, or of course, go on a vacation. And yes, I fully acknowledge that even amidst this great trial, we are
blessed. When we consider the 1918 pandemic, we have phones and email and Messenger and Face Time through which we can stay connected to loved ones. We have medical advancements that are keeping the losses, while still great, less than they would have been 100 years ago. We have economic response plans that are helping to minimize the financial impact on businesses and individuals alike - not saying the impact isn't still real and sometimes harsh, but less than it could have been. I think it's important to try and keep that perspective alive - but at the same time, it doesn't diminish the very real impact this is all still having. And, I also think that we became far more accustomed to, or reliant on things like external socialization, wider travel, being able to a store, than they were 100 years ago. Also, most women were still stay-at-home mothers then, so if the schools were shut down, it wasn't a big deal. For that matter, education wasn't even compulsory in all the states/provinces then so many children wouldn't have been in school anyways, or would have already been home-educated. So, there are certain ways in which we're better off, but in other ways, I think the pandemic has impacted us even more deeply than it would have in the past.
As you said, I find it so helpful to have a place where we can freely talk about how we're feeling, the struggles we're having, without being shamed for it, or it being turned into a contest of "Who has it worse?". It
is nice to know we're not alone.