Hello to all my WISH friends!
Thought I'd send out a hello to everyone before my Disney trip this Saturday. I haven't been following your journeys for the past few months as alot of stuff is going on in my life.
I've decided to end my marriage after 20 years. This has been a gut-wrenching decision for me to make. My life has been miserable for at least 10 years with verbal and emotional abusive behavior on the part of DH. I kept thinking as our money situation improved, or the kids got older or whatever, that he would get better, but instead things just got worse. Three years ago I started reading about divorce, but stopped short at calling a lawyer because I was too overwhelmed by the whole process.
Last fall around the time I started back running, the craziness just got out of control. His angry outbursts just got worse and he was going through my stuff, accusing me of having an affair...I'm sure this sounds familiar to others.
When I told him I wanted a divorce, he initially was angry, then crying and begging me not to leave, and now I think he's resigned that I'm not changing my mind. We have a lawyer we both like, and we're working on a settlement together to keep it amicable as possible for the sake of the kids. I hate our house since he never let me spend any money to fix it, so I'm planning on moving out to a condo with my DD. I want to stay in town until she finishes up high school. My DH wants to keep the house if he can afford it...fine with me. I make more so that's not an issue. I've been looking around at furniture and will start checking out condos after the trip.
I told him if he tries to ruin DD or my time at Disney with any foolishness, that we'll leave him to his own devices for the day and just meet him at dinner.
So that's my bad news. One of the things that I was thinking was that alot of my emotional eating and stress eating was related to my bad marriage. I realize that now. I am looking foward to starting a new life with my DD.
On a more happy note, my DS got a full tuition scholarship to the University of Richmond so he will be going there for college next year!! I am so proud of him, he really deserves it for all his hard work...we both really liked that campus the most out of all the places we visited that summer. So that is my good news from last week!
Also, I have continued my jog/walk regime...2-4 times a week I try to get out there..I am now up to 52 minutes at a time! Yippee!! Call it my antidepressant therapy...It has been a lifesaver for me sometimes!
Several co-workers saw me in jeans at outside functions and told me how skinny I looked...hey, I'll take a compliment, even if a good portion of the weight loss is stress-induced lack of appetite!!!
So this week is my "clean the house, pack for Disney" week...I can't wait, even if DH has to be there. It is our first visit to Universal and my DD loves those coasters! I can't wait to experience Wednesday night at MK with EMH until 1am!!! We are also going to try some new restaurants: Ohana's, Cali Grill, and will try the Fantasmic Dinner Pkg as we missed Fantasmic last year. So far the weather looks good...last year it was perfect...the only thing we needed our ponchos for was Kali RR!
Well, enough rambling...best wishes to all of you guys...LYMI!! See ya when we get back, and then I will definitely work on getting down to goal...just a few stubborn pounds away...
and to see how you are doing. I hope all is well with you! 
