Hey guys,
I'd been able to stay away from here for a while, but noro season is just around the corner and I'm already starting to get panicky about it.
I'm also having these weird issues with my head, the doctor said it could be hormone related since having my daughter (i got all this weird after pregnancy symptoms like random swelling on my face and body, like seriously my lip would swell so bad it touched my nose) but they want me to do an mri of my head with contrast to see if it is a sinus problem or occular migraines (i get temp blindness with them) or to see if they can figure out what is going on. I'm scared for several reasons a) i'm claustrophobic b) i don't like the side effects of the dye c) i'm scared they will find some huge tumor in my head. really I could go on forever about this, and I need answers but I'm terrified of them.
I think I mentioned to yall that I was scared of throwing up in labor, I'm happy to report that my zofran worked great. I had three doses in my IV, one when I first got up to delivery (10 hours of back labor that was every 3-4 minute contractions (umm i thought they were supposed to start slowly and ease into being hard and close-nope! not for me) only will leave anyone nauseated), I had one on the operating room table (after 27 hours of active labor, got fully dilated and ready to push but my DD's heartrate decelerated very badly) because i was terrified i was about to throw up and i was like oh crap my belly is wide open and i'm laying backwards on a table how the heck do i throw up and then another one when that one wore off, the third dose wasn't needed but i wanted it as comfort. I did have a bad stomach ache during transition and they warned me that i might throw up but i made it through that ok, it was pretty painful though, even with the epidural.
My DD spitting up doesn't bother me at all, and that is a positive thing for me. Movies and tv are continuing to not bother me, although I'm usually like hahaha ew gross when I see it.
My MIL is staying with us until November 10 and that drives me nuts because she isn't hand conscious like I am, and I feel like she is just spreading germs all over my house and everything. I want to scream! ugh. And she really doesn't care about washing her hands when returning in from the store and stuff.
I must give a brag though! We are local so we went to
MNSSHP last tuesday and i was really scared that I wouldn't be able to handle the crowds and lines, but i did just fine. I even snagged a front row spot for the parade and didn't let it bother me that I was in teh middle of a huge crowd with a lady sitting behind us talking about the horrible bug she'd just gotten over and she had her son with her who looked a bit peakish.
I just hope I can continue to make strides and not let this get the best of me. I have someone else to live for now, and I can't let her end up becoming afraid and getting like I am.