I just started reading your blog, starting at the beginning.
Oh, what can I possibly say? I can see so clearly your faith and your husband's faith and why hope was in the name of your blog. I am so so sorry that the two of you had to go through that. I look up, above my computer, to the sign that hangs there...
"There are only two way to live your life. One is though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
It's clear how you live your life, how Ben lived his. I'm crying, but there is so much faith and hope and love there. I see it all. You must get tired of strangers wanting to hug you!
Thanks for sharing your story with us.
Your son is beautiful
Thank you for sharing your life with us. Your love for your husband was felt in every word.
I am just checking in reading for the first time. Loving it so far!
Just read the blog....words cannot express the strength and courage that is clear. It is true that in life and death, there is hope. Loving reading about Disney and about your life together. Admiration does not begin to say what I feel. Hoping that life is now full of joy and wonder for you and your son.
I have been reading all along and have to tell you that you have a beautiful way with words. I am so sorry about Ben. The strength that you have for you and your son is so heartwarming. Stay strong and remember that Ben will always be right with you in your heart. Your story reminds me to appreciate each and every day. Thank you for that and for sharing Ben with us.
What an amazing Church you found to work for. They sound like great people.
Your strength is admirable.
I am very sorry for your loss and Raider's too of course
Looking forward to hearing about Raider's first trip
I just spent the last few hours reading your blog. Thank you is about all I can say. I shed a few tear (Ok more than a few). Thank you because I feel that all to many time we take things for granted and we need a few reminders of what really matters. I have 2 little boys and my oldest son had a few health scares for the first 2 years of his life. We had some dark and scary days and were very blessed because we dodged every bullet that came our way. But in a way I am thankful because it made me love harder and live for the moment. It made me go back for a second hug when really all I wanted was for them to go to sleep.
I hope I don't offend you by saying I am thankful for our scare (which I am sure you know I wish we never went through it) but it sure puts life in perspective.
I think your little boy is beautiful and what a beautiful gift you have in him. I wish you the best of luck. Thank you for sharing your story with us you have courage and a beautiful faith.
Here is another virtual hug. and one for your little guy too
I just noticed your TR early today and have now read every word and started on your blog. I really have no words, but you've had me in tears so many times. You've brought out so many feelings I've tried to tuck away over a not so recent loss of my own. I am so sorry for all you've been through. You are an amazingly strong woman and Raider is so blessed to have such parents. I'm looking forward to reading about the happy times to come in his first trip..
You are such an inspirational person. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. This is a true love story.
Amy
Your story is so moving and your faith is an inspiration. I think its amazing that you and Ben were able to have a legacy tile at Epcot in that package on your honeymoon. Its like you froze a moment in time and it will be there forever, that you and your son can look at every time you visit WDW. Raider looks so much like Ben, what a precious gift he is!
You did such a beautiful summary of your husband's life and your blog. Really. And since you are okay with the virtual hugs from strangers, let me give you a big one. Again, tears in my eyes but smiling. I can see what a happy, sweet child you have and that of course you survive this...of course you both do. But I'm still so sad for you and for Raider.
Your faith during this is loud and clear and that's what I see the most, that and the love. Like you said, it's not what you intended but I agree with you about how God works!
It's really a beautiful thing to see and a beautiful story to read.
Hi. I've been reading along and you have had me nearly in tears a couple of times now. You are amazing. Can I ask you a question...you mentioned that Ben worked as a ramp agent when you were in Minneapolis, I did that too and infact still work for an airline. What airline was he working for...I feel like I may have known him (but I can't see the pictures on my work computer so I can't know for sure.)
You have a written a beuatiful tribute to Ben. I too am sending you a virtual hug. Raider is adorable!
im crying as i'm subscribing to this thank you for sharing your story with us
I'm amazed at how fast it was between diagnosis and Ben's death. I won't say you are strong because, from experience, you've done what you're had to. Keep that strength and thanks for sharing.