December 15, 2003 (Monday) Day 15 on the Beach or We're Not In Kansas Anymore!
Today was my first official day on Phase II of the South Beach Diet. DH and I did it!! I feel like confetti should fall from the ceiling or something. When we started this program I never dreamed I would actually stick with it. I mean, I never stuck with any other plan before. Why is this so different? I think part of it is I am different. When I stepped on that scale the first morning and it read 282.5 pounds I almost fell out in disbelief. I knew it was time to do something and if this program was as easy to follow as I had heard then it could literally change my life and even though it's only been 2 weeks, I feel like I am transforming into a new woman.
People are starting to notice a change. That's so nice. Two of the lady attorneys in my office started SB when they learned that I lost 11.5 pounds my first week. They both started Sunday. We will be having lunch every Tuesday to keep tabs on each other.
I don't know where this journey will take me. I have always been afraid to lose this weight. I thought it would make me into a type of person that was bad or immoral or something. Silly I know but that is how I felt which made it so much easier for me to stay fat. It is actually scary to get compliments for someone like me. I read a post on lowcarbfriends where someone said that when the little voice inside says negative things to you that you shouldn't ignore the voice but acknowledge what it is saying and then get to the real issue as to why you feel unworthy to lose weight. I realized I'm not afraid to lose weight - what I am afraid of is another failure and the "look" people give you when they know you have failed at YET ANOHTER DIET. It's a terrible disheartening feeling and I desparately do not want that feeling. I was trying to keep this program to myself but people have notice almost from the end of the first week and have been demanding I tell them what I am doing.
I'm accountable now, to myself mostly but now to other people too because they know. It's okay though. I finally feel strong enough (first time in my life) to do this. Not for my husband or mother or one of my sisters or co-workers but for me!
Eating in Phase II allows you add back carbs slowly. I thought I could have a small bowl of cereal for breakfast and 1/2 light yogurt for a snack and be okay. Wrong!! I felt like someone had injected crack cocaine into my system. I was jittery all morning and just didn't feel right. The headache that followed let me know I wasn't imagining things. I guess being off the sugar for 2 weeks and then reintroducing two items with so many sugars was bad. I didn't realize my Bran cereal was already sweetened so I added a couple shakes of splenda on it. Oiy! Big mistake. The yogurt tasted so sugary to me at snack time that I could barely eat half of it. This from a woman who could put away a pint of ice cream quicker than you can say, "Bob's your uncle". I think what I will do is leave the yogurt for occasional desserts and definitely NOT put splenda on the cereal. We'll see how that goes. I even made the mistake of having 1/2 cup of no sugar added ice cream (Breyers neopolitan) for my dessert and ended up with the same jittery feeling and pounding headache so it's back to the fudgesicles for this gal. I am so gun shy at this point that I think I'll have a cup of Earl Grey tea before bed so I don't go into sugar shock!
Food:
B: 1/2 bowl of Post Bran All Flakes (I think that's the name) with 2% milk
S: 1/2 strawberry light yogurt
L: Chef Salad with lf ranch dressing
S: 1/2 strawberry light yogurt
D: Grilled chicken breast and sald with lf ranch dressing and 1/2 cup no sugar added ice cream for dessert
Exercise/Water:
30 minutes on my exercise bike
6 mugs of water at work and 2 of the .5 litres of water at home
That's a wrap for Monday. I am learning so much about my body on this journey. Sugar and good carbs have to be added back slowly. Oh, that one pound was bothering me so I did weigh myself this morning (Tuesday) and I did lose it so I have lost 15 pounds in 15 days but I am not counting it until I do my official weigh in on Monday. I knew I was holding water, I could just feel it. So I need to be sure to get in tons of water on Sunday before weigh in.
I hope your eyes have not glazed over from reading this lengthy entry. I just wanted to be sure to get down all my thoughts today. Thanks as always for reading and let's not forget - we can do this together!!!!
I hope you got your new computer yesterday because I'm anxious to see how you're doing. I'm still hanging in there and still steady at 189 1/2.
Hopefully I'll see the scale move on Monday. I hope everything is ok where you are. Have a good weekend if I don't hear from you before then.
