I've know my ex since I was 13 and we were together for most of the past 9 years, but we broke up a couple of months ago. Last May him and I went to Disney World together for the first time - I'd been before with my family but it was his first trip and it was so much fun. When we got back we booked another trip and it was pretty much understood that he would propose on it, but we broke up before the trip and I ended up cancelling it because I couldn't afford to pay for the whole thing myself. I've always loved Disney and the parks, but now every time I consider booking a trip for myself I find it really upsetting, but I don't want to lose something I enjoy over someone who doesn't care about me and I don't know what to do about it.